Hi, I’m Pernilla. I’m Here For You. You Are Not Alone.
My name is Pernilla and I am a mother of two young children and in long-term recovery. I am very passionate about issues related to recovery, about connecting with other parents in recovery, and about helping all parents be better prepared, equipped and supported in tackling drug and alcohol issues. Having support for my alcoholism and addiction has been invaluable to me, especially during the first few months of my recovery.
Having a place to go and share my story and hear others’ stories and struggles has saved my life. For this reason, I am also very enthusiastic about working with the Time To Get Help community and hope that parents struggling with addicted teens and young adults have a place to come and feel supported.
Growing up, my parents fought a lot, which caused a lot of tension in my household and led to great anxiety for me. In my early teens I was eager to do anything I could to get rid of these negative feelings.
At 14 I was offered alcohol for the first time. After the first sip, the anxiety was gone and I felt some relief. After that, all I wanted to do was drink. I drank heavily until I was introduced to drugs at 19 years old. I made it through college somehow, and after graduating I got a job as a nightclub doorman. In this environment my drug use escalated.
After three years of working in the nightlife scene, the feelings of hopelessness and despair from all the alcohol and drug use became overwhelming. One such dark and desperate night brought me into a place of such despondence that a friend recommended I go to an Alcoholics Anonymous meeting, and I agreed to go the next day.
Admitting I had a problem and that I needed help was the first step, and it was an immense relief. I went to my first meeting on July 23rd, 1998, and I have been sober ever since.
I often ask myself why I have been able to stay sober since my first AA meeting, and I attribute it to the magic that happens in AA meetings and to the fact that I was ready and completely surrendered to the fact that I was an alcoholic. There is still no doubt in my mind that I suffer from the disease of addiction and alcoholism. I know that if I picked up a drink today, I would want another and then another.
Recovery is not easy and takes a lot of work. When the drink or drug is taken away from someone, there is still much to work to do to understand the underlying issues that triggered the impulse to drink or use in the first place.
I volunteered to be Time To Get Help’s community manager because I want to be a first point of contact for parents seeking help. I am here to assist with anything from how to use the Time To Get Help website to answering a pressing question or leading you to get help the right help for your child.
Parents, I am here for you; know that you are not alone.
Community Manager, Time To Get Help
The Partnership at Drugfree.org
P.S. Feel free to shoot me an email: http://timetogethelp.drugfree.org/contact.