Mom who needs help picking herself up from the ground and needs words of hope .... I am somebody. I'm David's Mom

Isandoval ~ Please feel uplifted from me on behalf of so many other parents and loved ones who walk this very road with you. The hardest part for me was letting go but yet not giving up. In so many things we are helpless, and I have nothing but hugs and support for you there. But even today as I went on my walk, I had people who were waiting for me and I really battled whether or not I could be so selfish to take my walk and make them wait... so many others work through lunch why not me. No one else benefits from my walk but me, so what right did I have to make others wait for me. But somewhere, someone planted a seed that grew into a thought that I keep with me always - take care of me. I'm a better person to get outside and leave my work behind for 10 min. I'm a better wife, mom, daughter, sister, employee, co-worker...all the various hats we wear, they all go better when we take care of ourselves. It's not selfish, it's you being better prepared to handle the difficult situation you've been placed in. When I first started my walking, I bought a small mp3 player and would turn the music up as loud as I needed to on the days I just couldn't get the thoughts out of my head. I'm going on 4 years at this job and I'm still walking, somedays the music is still blaring. My choice is praise and worship music, but anything that would just let you take a mental break while your body got a little exercise would work I'm sure. I pray you have people around you to support you personally. You are broken and lied to and alone with your own thoughts and worries - but try not to feel guilty (easier said than done). Each day wake up and do the best you can that day, and do it again the next day. When you look back you will have weeks behind you, then months... Hugs and prayers to you and whoever is in your situation with you. All the best. Take care!!