Its Oct 27, 2011 today makes 1 week since I have heard from my son in jail. He called me on Oct 20th to tell me how I betrayed him, how I was selfish, and how he was done with me for calling the law on him. His one question was WHY? When I tried to explain to him that watching him slowly kill himself, having his brother and sister witness his behavior when high not to mention giving me no choice but to watch it since he continuously came to my home when messed up he wasnt trying to hear it. No mom this is your selfish act because you had me locked up the day before my 25th birthday. Its mom's fault that he decided to start shooting up, that the police found numerous needles in my home.. Its my fault.
God how wish he could only see how much my heart breaks for him. How emotional distraught my mind and soul is for feeling like I had no other choice. ( I had told him before he came out of rehab, do not come to our home messed up ) I try so hard to stand firm when talking...