Always Changes.

My son has now held himself accountable for the things he has done lately. He has lived knowing how what choices he has made lately affect everyone, but mostly himself. It's like bowling, but the pins slowly go down one at a time. He sees how the conflicting emotions bowl everyone down and end with him. It's really quite painful to watch, this realization that occurs. But, at the same time I found that from all the things that I have been learning and practising have been working. I can't stress that enough to people starting this journey, and people riding the merry-go-round of still trying to control the situation. I found that I worried of the outcome, but that I let nature take its course and continued on with my life not letting guilt get me again. My daughter that I have been paying rent to had enough and said I don't want this anymore. He has till the end of the week. It's ruining mine and my husbands life the choices he is making lately and that was not the deal. It worried me of where my son was going to be because he still can't come back to this town. But, I let him take care of it. I said as long as he was somewhere going to school and living the rest of the rules I would pay his rent. He went to see his councilor at school and was finished school on Friday last week. His teacher texted to tell me that even if he fails his exams next week he will still pass all his grades. He went to his second oldest sister to see if he could stay with them. He was told that he could but as soon as there was a slip up again he would have to find somewhere else to live. He had to go back to school next year, get a full time job and help me with bills, and keep a partime job when school started again. He had to live by the house rules and be respectful at all times. I hope that given the situation and letting him be responsible for his own worries he has learned a valueable lesson. I know that he has learned the lesson of taking people for granted doesn't always work out in his favor, because like me, all his family has been educating in this area. I know that there are going to be slip ups and they say that an addict learns by the painful mistakes they make. It's to bad that everyone has to suffer in this, but as I said what we have learned and pracitised seems to be working. My son along with my youngest daughter and oldest son came home for the weekend and we just let it be and had a great weekend. One day at a time. One problem at a time. Again thanks Kamanlove for this word and way. Tomorrow is full of possibilty. My sons councilor gave my son this piece of advice that I think everyone should practise and it is so simple. 'When you start feeling down about something go out and start smiling at people, at a mall, at school, and see how many smiles you get back. You will be amazed what you find. He tried this and said you know Mom it worked I got lots of smiles and it made me feel good, forgot about other things. LOL there's some advice for everyone to practise and it's so easy with such rewarding results.