I used to think that I had to get everything “right”, (what ever that was) and so I labored endlessly for some nebulous state of perfection that resided in a distant part of my mind. I would often tell myself that I would know it was right... when I saw it, when I felt it or when I reached it… but I know now that was one of the lies addicts tell themselves as they become debtors to their past or their future
Today in recovery I know that I cannot delay until everything is just right because perfection is beyond the grasp of mere mortals. There will always be challenges, obstacles and conditions I have no control over. I know now that I just have to make a beginning and with every stride I make, I grow stronger, more skilled and more self-confident in my own recovery and more importantly...my own humanity.
"No This is not the end. It is not even the beginning of the end. But it is, perhaps, the end of the beginning." Winston Churchill