Wonder and Worry: Can I Save My Daughters From Drug Addiction?
As a parent in recovery, I look at my children’s faces every day and I wonder and worry.
I wonder, with everything I know and everything I’ve learned, will I be able to save them from the dangers of alcohol and drug abuse? I wonder about the “gene” and the fact that I know there are many in both my family and my husbands’ that have it.
I worry about my children’s environment: the drug pushers, the “cool” friends and doctor’s writing careless prescription -- all out there potentially giving my beautiful, innocent daughters something that could threaten their lives.
I worry about the things I say, the things that happen on the playground at school. I worry about the things that could happen to them emotionally that could somehow predispose them to being receptive to actually try a prescription drug to get high and that that one time could be all it takes.
I guess I could wonder and worry about so many other things happening to them, but because I am in recovery myself, this is the one thing that is closest to my mind.
If I tried all of it, why wouldn’t they?
All I can do is hope and pray that if they do try it and they do get hooked, they would get help. Maybe it would be the rooms of Alcoholics Anonymous (AA) just like I did.
AA has changed my life so profoundly and on so many, levels. It has given me tools for living and happiness right into the core of my being. Because of it, the black hole exists no longer, and my need to fill it with substances is gone. I have been given the ability to walk through life with faith and hope and trust.
I just hope that I can transmit some of these values and the inner peace I feel to my children and I do whatever I can to prevent them from using drugs and alcohol. But if they go down the path of addiction, I hope they too will find sobriety and serenity just as I did.
I hope that by teaching them to allow themselves to feel their feelings and to always speak up when something is going on and to try not to hold the emotions in, they will be aided in keeping away from drugs. Maybe teaching them that negative emotions are not bad and should not be discarded or ignored or something that we should distract ourselves from will be useful. I hope that by saying to them that negative feelings are as important as positive feelings and in our life’s journey we have to learn to deal with both sides of the coin.
I wonder if any of this will help.
And I wonder are there other parents in recovery out there that are thinking about the same things? If so, please share.